More Ramblings I Guess

It's been a while since I last wrote in here. For a bit I returned to writing notes on facebook, and then I just stopped altogether. I went through my computer recently and deleted a lot of old writings... nothing important, just things that reminded me of bad times. Sometimes I'm really sad I posted those online for many people to see. It's no wonder how easy it is to single me out as being emotional.

I've noticed something as of recent. When I'm at work, in a new environment, with new people, I think I've completely changed. I feel like one of the cool kids, even though I'm the newest one there. I don't second guess myself, I feel welcome. I wish I could say the same for APhiO. I am happy things turned out the way they did, I am happy to see it's become a non-issue, and I'm truly interested to see how this semester turns out. 

I still wish I was more courageous at times. I think last semester I had my share of courage: rescuing maidens and slaying dragons, metaphorically. All that adventure has since forced me into solitude. I'm not sure of my place, for the maiden was quickly eaten by the voltures, and the dragon, though gone, left me singed. I'm not sure what I want in this organization anymore, though I am glad to finally be head of my family. That's one good thing for this semester. 

Anyways, no one reads this thing, save family, which is why I feel safe to post it. It could all be folly, but when did I ever shy away from making a fool of myself?